New Music Friday

Hi everyone!

 

It’s been a long time and I’m sorry. Everything has been really hectic, but you’ll get that update on Tuesday. For now, it’s music Friday and it’s a pretty exciting Friday. It’s May 12th and both Paramore and Machine Gun Kelly released albums today and they’re both incredible.

I’ve listened to all of “Bloom” by Machine Gun Kelly (it’s pretty great car music) and I really like it so far. It’s got that traditional MGK rapid-fire style, but he also tackles serious subjects like he always does. He’s never afraid to talk about where he came from or how hard he struggled to get where he is. He may rap about hundred dollar bills and private jets, but he’ll also talk about exactly how low everything got before he got his record deal.

There are also a few collaborations that are amazing. Of course Bad Things is on this album, I’ve been singing along with it since it dropped in October of last year. Also “At My Best” one of my favorite songs of 2017 already, which dropped back in March with Hailee Steinfield.

My favorite song on the album (as of right now) is either “Go For Broke” or “At My Best”.

Paramore also released their follow-up to their self-titled album, “After, Laughter”. It’s so different but the lyrics feel so familiar. It’s like being gone for a period of time and then coming home? The lyrics are so fresh, but still so relatable to all of us.

They also announced the next Parahoy! which of course I can’t go to, but it’s okay. I love that they continue to do this year after year. It’s such an awesome and unique experience.

I need more time with “After Laughter” before I decide a favorite, but I’ll have one for you Friday.

Enjoy all the music!

 

xoxo

Jocelyn

 

Advertisements

#5YearsofSymphonySoldier

This is a special music Friday that’s happening on Tuesday because it’s the 5th anniversary of Symphony Soldier by The Cab.

I love this album. There are very few albums that I truly love from the first second to the last, from the first song to the last one. I can’t explain how important this album has been for me for the past three years. Temporary Bliss is one of the song’s who’s lyrics I remembered seeing on tumblr and twitter a lot before I actually started listening to them.

This album is what made me fall in love with The Cab. Alexander Deleon’s voice and the band’s catchy melodies are sure hits. I love singing Temporary Bliss and La La at the top of my lungs in my car.

Living Louder and Lovesick Fool are two of my favorite emotional songs from The Cab. Overall the album is truly incredible and an amazing, fun listen for anyone who’s never heard them before now.

Favorite Lyrics?

“Living louder, singing longer tonight.”

“I’m not perfect, but I swear I’m perfect for you.”

“I see the stars in the freckles on your face.

“I’m no angel, I’m just me, but I will love you endlessly.”

 

I love you Symphony Soldier.

xoxo

J

Bloodshot

Everything has been a little radio silent recently and I’m sorry for that. Honestly? It’s just been crazy busy.

I got to meet Simple Plan last month and see Andrew McMahon perform for the first time and it’s just been a month of new music and growth and good things so far.

I won tickets off the radio for Simple Plan and got to meet them. They were amazing and super nice. Not many bands manage to put me at ease so I don’t feel awkward around them, but Simple Plan did. They remind of Set It Off the way they joke around and tease each other. Three weeks later, I won tickets from the venue to see Andrew McMachon. I was stunned by how incredible and talented he was. I loved Something Corporate and Jack’s Mannequin, but his solo stuff is amazing as well. He just puts on great show.

I also got to see Star Trek. There were just so many feelings. I definitely cried about Anton. A lot. I miss him already. It sounds ridiculous, but I fell in love with that cast back in 2009. Chris, Zach, Karl, Anton, John, Zoe, and Simon are some of my favorite actors. They are like my children, I followed their careers and went to see their movies/watch their tv shows.

Losing Anton was like losing a part of my heart. The movie did him justice though and that was what I needed.

I got moved into my apartment finally and I start school next week. I can’t wait. I still have to completely get everything unpacked before we start school, but it’s really exciting to be living in a new place.

I’ll be back to update you again soon!

xoxo

J

 

Wild Wild World (part 2)

Just hours after my last post, the Orlando Pulse Club Shooting broke the news. Emotionally I was already drained, but then this news was there and I was sobbing in my bed on a Sunday morning. 

The original count as I pulled myself together was 25 people. By the time I checked my phone after Sunday school, it was 49. I wanted to cry all over again. Someone had walked into that LGBT club with the intent of killing those people.

I’d never felt fear and anger like that before. Afterwards, I got off social media for almost the entire week. It helped. I needed a breath of fresh air from all the death and sadness online. 

Then this past Sunday my world was shattered. Anton Yelchin, my Chekov, died in a freak accident at his home. I lost it; I’m not going to lie. I spent that night sobbing in my bed and the next one watching Star Trek 2009 and crying. It was tough. 

I had never even considered that he wouldn’t be here for the premiere. This was the first celebrity death that truly broke me. 

On top of that, my friends literally went radio silent when I talked to them about it. Sarah seemed confused I was so upset and Katie said she was also upset but then never sent me a message back. I was hurting and it was silent. 

I don’t know what I wanted them to do, but it was more than this. Space, I always wanted, but silence was not the answer. And our group chat went silent for days. 

I don’t know how to do this. I don’t know how to make friendships last. I don’t know what I’m doing wrong. I can’t keep dwelling on it anymore. 

I move into a new apartment in a week and start orientation in about a month and a half. I’m so excited for pharmacy school and I can’t let this bring me down from that. 

I know everything will get better. 
xoxo 

J

RIP Anton Yelchin 1989-2016

Wild Wild World

“What a wild wild world we live in,

Where money talks and trouble sells.”

It’s been a long day today. It’s been a long month since I last wrote. 

Katie and I got into another serious argument. We didn’t talk for two weeks. At the PVRIS show she drove me insane with her complaints and I snapped at her. I apologized but I didn’t mean it. 

Once again I caved. It’s not like I’ll ever have to spend an extended amount of time with her again. I won’t. It’s a breath of fresh air. 

I’m so close to 178 days clean. I’m 177 today and even though it was rough today, I never felt the urge to self harm. I’m so proud of where I’ve come from. 

Besides that, I had one of the hardest days since my grandma died and Paris was attacked. 

There was a shooting outside a venue in Orlando last night. Christina Grimmie died. At first we heard she was injured, but then she died. I wasn’t even a fan, but I cried a long time last night. It hurt my heart.  

It hurt because that could have been Fall Out Boy, it could have been Pierce the Veil, my god it could have been Austin. Just thinking about it right now makes me anxious. 

Concerts are my safe place. My wasteland, my only retreat. The place where I can forget about everything and sing at the top of my lungs with people who love those people on stage just as much as me. 

I don’t want one of my favorite life-experiences to be tainted like this. I don’t want to be scared about going to my safe space. We shouldn’t be scared. 

Don’t be scared. Live your life to its fullest. God always has a plan for us. 

“Maybe it’s time to tame the monster inside of that wild, wild world we live in.”

Wasted

Hey everyone!

A lot of things have shifted since I last posted. First of all it’s been about a month and a half. I’m sorry it’s been so long, but these past few weeks have been insanely busy everywhere.

I graduated at the beginning of the month and I’ll get my diploma mid-June, AKA I passed pchem and I’ve never been so happy. Graduation was so emotional for me, I’m not going to lie. I spent so much time worrying about graduating and dealing with physical chemistry that being done made me feel so much better.

I’m moving into my new apartment at the end of June and I’m also super excited about that. My own space for one, and I’ll be getting ready to start a new chapter of my life. I’m so ready for that.

I’m 160 days self-harm free today. I’m so close to be breaking my longest streak (178 days) and I’m so proud of myself. I’ve been better right now, I haven’t had as many urges as before either. Heartsupport has literally been that recently, support. I’m so glad I found them.

I got to see PVRIS live in Nashville as well and they were truly incredible. I love seeing them every single time. They never fail to impress me. We got to meet Lynn too and she was so nice to us. I can’t wait to see them again.

I’ll be back tomorrow for a new music Friday post. So much new music is out right now and I’ve been loving it.

xoxo

see you tomorrow

J

 

 

Spain: Madrid

I’m not exactly sure how it came up in conversation, but I mentioned to my friend Sare that I had been to Spain the summer I turned 16 (6 whole years ago. Holy crap.). I realized in that conversation that I hadn’t posted any of my pictures from that trip anywhere.

So I wanted to share some of those memories with you!

I miss Spain. It was my first time visiting another country and truly experiencing the culture. I loved it.

We visited six major cities (Madrid, Toledo, Cordoba, Valencia, Sevilla and Barcelona), Morocco, and a small city on the coast. I’ve got so many weird pictures (I was 16 and terrible about framing shots), but a lot of really pretty ones.

I’m actually going to break them up into cities, because there are so many. So this post is about Madrid!

 

DSCF5412 DSCF5413 DSCF5435 DSCF5439 DSCF5441 DSCF5445 DSCF5449 DSCF5488 DSCF5516DSCF5421DSCF5685DSCF5666DSCF5660

 

So these photos span our visit to the capital, the Royal palace, Plaza Mayor, the subway station and eating churros and chocolate. We went to a tapas bar and got serenaded by a mariachi band. Even though I was exhausted from traveling, those first few days were incredible.

I’ll post more cities soon! And feel free to ask questions!

J